get on with it

It has taken me along time to be able to write on this blog and I only want to say this about what I am going through.

I have never really felt that everything I loved about life would be taken away from so quickly and I think that for all of the psychoanalysis I'm about to undergo and the bridges I need to cross, my current feelings are scored so deep across my heart and the big "loser" written on my head will leave a permanent scar.
Maybe one day I will put down on paper what has happend but at the moment I can't here - perhaps I should devote a new bolg for each overwhelming emotion that I am experiencing.

All I can do is get on with it and keep smiling. Platitudes will not help and neither will lies.